I haven’t posted on my blog in months, a lot has happened.
Firstly, the podcast I worked really hard to create was bowled over by a couple of over zealous co-hosts. I had a vision of a short-form podcast with a quick punchy delivery. However, it didn’t work out that way.
Five episodes in, dozens and dozens of films discussed, 5 episodes filmed, hours and hours of footage edited- uploaded to YouTube and the audio podcast was now out in the ether. We were slowly growing but then what I was afraid of happening happened. The views were less and less, people were tuning out after 10 or 15 minutes. The podcast downloads and stats showed me no one was listening/watching these hour/ hour and a half podcasts. My health was in decline so I made a decision to quit it. It wasn’t what I wanted and no one listened to me anyway. My ideas got tossed and my input fell on deaf ears.
Not a good experience.
A lesson learned in working with other creators. Always state your intention that the project is yours, but should you monetize, it will be split amongst the contributors. I wasn’t clear enough on this so my co-hosts just took over the podcast completely and are slowly running it into the ground. TOO BLOODY LONG.
Since then I’ve been hesitant to guest on other podcasts as that experience made me feel like I wasn’t good enough. It affected my self esteem just when my body blew up with illness and pain. It’s taking me a while to get back to where I was.
It’s been several months since that debacle and six new medications later I’m still trying to pump out content. At my own pace. You can still find me on TikTok and Instagram doing horror movie reviews and other horror-related short-form content. I’m still writing movie reviews just mainly on Letterboxd now. I desperately need to update my blog with all the movies I’ve watched since my last entry.
It’s SPOOKTOBER so I’m trying to do a movie a day. I missed a couple of days due to illness and Mike Flanagan’s, The Midnight Club (which is a series) but I highly recommend it, you can find it on Netflix.
I do have two short stories in the works, illness has thwarted my projects at the moment but I will be back. Hopefully with a new story and a new podcast episode.
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